Lock in

Not attention deficit,
it’s sensory overload.

Same system as yours,
just running a different code.
with a broken filter
that won’t shut up.

Hearing. Seeing. Feeling
EVERYTHING all at once.

like a dementor
sucking the life out of me
from the inside out.

I’m exhausted
from my own mind.

But once I crash and burn
tears dried up
system fried up
that’s when I rise
inside my own flames
and hijack the whole operating system screaming: FUCK YOU.

Im a high-load system.
I do not function at 50.
I am 0… or 100.
either losing the will to live
or I LOCK IN.

Because once I DECIDE
on a single target?
Tunnel vision.
All my cosmic chaos collide as one, refracting through my prism.

AC current -> DC.

ADHD is camouflage bro
you’ll never see my strike coming.

Jack Russel -> Tiger.

All my restless rhythms
playing at the same time –
no remote control
no pause, no rewind.

Sensory overload never eases,
a constant war inside me
that nobody sees.

I read every unsaid,
every shift, every silence misread –
So why can’t they read my dread?
my systemic freeze?

Paralysis loading now – overstimulation.

drop
to
my
knees.