I’m complex.
I’m chaotic.
Tiny paradox.
Kinetic catastrophe.
Unpredictable manic pixie
full of bubbles and wit –
but don’t ever underestimate
the force in this.
Structural engineer
with no structure.
Either scattered –
or a laser.
There’s fire beneath everything I do,
rising through pathologised cracks
you labelled as my “lack.”
What a load of crap.
“Disorder.”
“Deficit.”
“You never listen.”
“Just try harder.”
“Oh my God sameee,
I lose focus too,
I probably have ADHD as well.”
Cool.
Do you also
implode internally – daily?
Freeze mid-task
unable to even get up and piss?
Walk yourself into chaos
and accidentally flirt with death
chasing dopamine
your nervous system’s starving for?
Or do you just lack discipline
and cosplay self-awareness
through a self-diagnosis?
Because people weaponising ADHD
as a get-out card
for being disgusting human beings?
Will ALWAYS piss me off.
Yeah, I might miss your call.
Open the wrong car door.
Turn up late
to some shit I forgot existed.
But injustice?
That hits my nervous system
like a shockwave.
I’ll back a toad
that dismissed me yesterday
if the truth says
they were wronged today.
Because a neurodivergent moral compass
ain’t built on small talk
and “Kind Regards” fluff.
If I ask how are you
I actually want to hear
what the fuck is happening with you.
Tell me you missed your alarm
and your morning went to shit.
Tell me you proposed
and she said yes
and you’re trying not to cry
at work right now.
But don’t tell me
you’re “fine.”
You best believe
I don’t say I’m fine either.
Most of you
“Kind Regards” fuckers
don’t actually want truth –
you want performance.
So I’ll drop my truthbombs louder.
Maybe then
you’ll finally understand
what your performative
“Diversity & Inclusion” talks
were supposed to mean.
Because half these people
treat my wiring
like a tick-box exercise
to sign off their own ego.
“Great presence.”
“Very inclusive human.”
Meanwhile this guy’s personality switches
more than London weather
misreported by BBC News.
SHE WON'T SIT STILL OR SHUT UP 
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